growth and change

where does the time go?

apparently 8 months can go by pretty fast!

so much has changed : so much has happened : so much to share

2012 was a year of change and growth.

change : moving, leaving the known, making a new home, learning

a new environment, wondering how and making it all work.

growth : personal change, swallowing toddlerhood, questioning motherhood,

trying to fit in, learning to make hard decisions, wondering if those decisions

were the best.

2013 : a lot more change and growth!

change : becoming pregnant.

growth : getting myself out there, raising an independent toddler, finding 

 who I really am, questioning all decisions (thanks to the hormones) and yes,

still questioning motherhood but with a lot more questions, doubts, worries

anxiety... adding one seems to bring this out in me.

this year, already, has tested a lot.

from the moment i saw those 2 pink lines - i changed.

for the good?  bad?  still debatable.

i can't explain how i felt : ecstatic, worried, excited, scared, happy, 

unsure : just too many emotions all at once.

with all the emotions there is one thing i can explain : 

my heart was happy and i felt complete knowing

we were adding to our family and brynleigh would have a sibling.

i was even more excited to find out we were having a BOY!

i am happy to say we are happy and healthy at 24 weeks.

all tests have been confirmed and now we're just waiting for

his arrival on or before (hopefully) november 12th (drays birthday) which 

would be pretty cool since it would be 11.12.13!

speaking of change and growth : my sweet brynleigh.

so, so, so much has changed : she's definitely come into her own.

she's a dancer (her all time fav to dance to is jason aldean's 1994), she's

a singer (lover her ABC's), she's an artist (getting a bit out of hand on the 

furniture!), she's a gymnist (or at least tries), she's outgoing at home but can be

oh so shy in public (always looking at mommy and/or daddy for approval first), 

her vocab has grown into sentences, she's a mommy to her dolls (her babies as she calls

them), she knows what she wants and yes still wants it now, she doesn't like night night and

beginning not to like naps (but still takes them), when she doesn't get what she wants she likes

to hit (apparently only mommy), she's learning what 'time out' means (even though mommy still

hasn't learned it), she loves loves loves to give kisses and hugs, she kisses your booboo's and wants you to kiss hers, she loves water and, i think, has finally talked daddy into a pool, 

she loves cars (thanks to daddy), she doesn't like it when you're upset (she asks, 'you k mommy' and when she falls or hits something she says 'I k,' loves asking where

everyone is (where daddy? where nana? where aunt mimi? where frank? where ma? where papa? where aunt weewee?...), has her own style...

i could go on and on : i have a very happy, independent, growing toddler and i love it.

pics coming soon, promise.

hopefully it won't take me so long to post again!!!

until then...