the wilson's: Emotions...

here we are - 6 days into the band.

why emotions? after we got her band last Thursday they tell you to take it off every 2-3 hours to check for redness - if it doesn't go away after an hour then stop use.

well - we noticed a red spot on her right side above her ear that just wouldn't go away.

of course, it was over the weekend but I called first thing Monday morning and they told me to come in. sure enough (thankful I called) they told us to leave it off until the spot goes away.

this was Monday afternoon. it was off on Monday night, all day Tuesday, Tuesday night and this morning. after her morning nap I thought it looked great so decided to go ahead and put it back on tonight... so... she's upstairs, sleeping like the baby she is and I'm down here praying there's no red spot in the morning!!!

why emotions? a part of me was like put the band on for the longer she stays out of it the longer she'll have to be in it... the other part of me was like my poor baby's head is red and I don't ever want to put the band back on again.

I'm not going to lie - I greatly enjoyed her out of it the last few days.

what I enjoy most is her hugs, her rubbing her head on my shoulder and face when she's tired... feeling the plastic helmet in my face isn't the most comforting! so believe me, I've gotten in all the hugs and cuddling I could before putting it back on!

why emotions? am I doing the right thing? am I putting it on right? am I hurting her head more? does it fit properly? the last thing I want to do is shape her head the wrong way and we're in this thing for the next 6 months!!! I guess I'll have to believe that all will be okay - that faith will lead us in the right direction - that I'm a good mommy for correcting this now - I pray for strength each and every night and I pray for my beautiful little girl to get through this... (and her mommy!)

here she is on the couch - she woke up early from her nap so we came downstairs to sit for a bit before feeding.