One Month...

Where to begin - half of me is feeling worn down, frustrated, on edge... And the other half of me is feeling so very blessed, joy, happiness, complete. Amazing how one can feel so many different emotions all at once.

One month... So much has happened. We've been through an eye infection ( let me rephrase, still going through...) we've had our share of crying spells (no, not baby - momma!) we've had a major accident... while trying to trim the nails, momma nipped some skin... when the wailing started, momma had a breakdown... I cried more than Brynleigh!!!  That was very painful for me... can't imagine what it's going to be like when she has to have a shot or something... daddy might have to takeover that one!

The schedule... uugghh! 

At first I was paranoid that I would get off schedule - well, it does happen!  I've gotten a lot better now - but we're still trying to find our nitch - I was scared (but happy) that she slept for 5 1/2 hours one night... and then she started waking back up at 2:45am - it's like clock work!!  I think we're going to start a bottle - Dray can feed her a few times a day so they can bond and mommy can have a break!!  Wish us luck on that one!

And here is what makes it all better...

I won't go into what a struggle it was to take this pic... she just wasn't feeling it.  Not to mention we started this process hours before we actually got a shot we could use!  Thanks to Aunt Mandy - she came in for a visit... it was GREAT to spend time with her... wish we had more 'girl time'... but with a newborn it was a little hard!

To know me is to know that I'm hard-headed... no, really... I am :)  I very rarely ask for help and I'm certainly not one to share my feelings... until, of course, I'm about to blow... which can't be good!  Sis was all about helping me - making sure I got some rest and took charge - I hate to admit this but... due to my hard-headedness I didn't let her take care of us like she truly wanted.  My fault - a huge part of it was due to I wanted to spend time with her and how could that be done if I was sleeping???  We rarely get together and when we do I cherish that time and want to 'hang out.'... it was a short visit and we are TRULY hoping to have her back VERY soon!!!  We love Aunt Mandy more than she knows and are truly blessed to have her in our lives!!

I look at this picture - in the hospital - and look at her now... changes, yes... but it does worry me that she seems to be getting skinnier but taller... she is quite the long one!  Dray says she's going to be 6 foot and 120 lbs... we'll have to see about that.. ummm, have you seen her parents??? :)  We go to her first month appt on the 20th... LOTS of questions... hopefully momma will feel better after the visit!!

A shout out to Alicia for the monthly stickers... Mandy already picked out all the bows for the first 6 months of pics... hopefully it will get easier snapping a shot as she gets older :)

Till next time... much love... xoxoxo