Nana and Grandpa

my world - six weeks tomorrow.

everyday is dejavu - feed, play, sleep... although, my world is pretty

much without the sleep!  Why?  not sure... not for lack of trying that's for sure!!

Dray went to Chicago on Monday - will be back tonight.  I had to call

in the big guns!  :)  Thank God for Nana and Grandpa.

I will say - remember being hard-headed... well, it seems to 

still be here!  Nana did everything she could to make sure my life was easy -

why can't I let go - at least just a little bit.  I've never been one to be paranoid, 

have to be in control at ALL times, major schedule follower (who would have thought),

second guessing myself - second guessing everyone else, getting frustrated if

things aren't done the way I want them to be... yes, this is me now.

getting better?  a little - at least I think :)

just when I think I've got it down things change - normal?  I'm sure.  do I like?

not so much.  I use to say I love change - change is good - keeps you on your toes

and mixes things up... now... I'm all about routine.  Will this phase end?  yes.  when?  hopefully soon!!  it's hard when I look at that cute little face and want everything to be perfect for her.

I mean really - how cute is this...

I know - right!?!

Everyone says enjoy it now for this phase will pass - WAY too soon...

I think about that everyday... I see her personality, her expressions, her smiles and I wonder what kind of person she's going to be.  the infant stage is definitely a wonderful experience (no matter how much I complain or get stressed - I wouldn't change it for the world) -

my little mini-me.


sleep... one would think a newborn would be sleepy - nope.
Brynleigh likes to take cat naps... a lot of them!
just when you think she's asleep - she's wide awake and wants to be held...

and of course... momma holds her!!!

She's getting bigger - her cheeks are starting to get pudgy, which I love!

the feeding thing - still figuring it out!  We've started 3 bottles a day - half BM and half formula... she's seems to be doing well... although she never seems to be full - don't know where she puts it - is she going to be one of those who can eat anything and never gain???  HA - not with the parent's she has!!

she loves her Nana... and yes, Nana loves her!

I really need to take more pictures... I seem to miss a lot and very rarely get to capture a picture like above... note to self - carry the camera at all times!!